So I think I have forgotten what it is like to sleep through the night. I suppose this is a good thing since you don't get to do that when you have a newborn anyway! I haven't slept through the night since about week 6. :)
The surgery just heightened that, as I have been told I need to be drinking at least 3 quarts of water a day-post surgery. Plus, baby has been head down, dropped, in position since about week 28. This calls for a few trips to the restroom in the middle of the night.
I have to laugh because it is definitely God's way of preparing moms to be up all night!
Nighttime is strange. I've never really thought too much about it until I've been up in it more often. It is strange how the same rooms, in the same house can take on a completely different effect. You can feel so alone, as it seems like the whole world is sleeping while you are not. I read an interesting section in my devotional book the other day that kind of pertained to this. It has had me thinking, so I thought I would just type it here rather than try and explain it:
"Sleep deprivation is one of the tools Satan uses to gain control over our thoughts. Fatigue increases feelings of frustration and irritability. Often at night we feel alone because the distractions of the day are gone. We are separated from friends and family. It is then that the prince of darkness makes his strongest attacks on our faith. He will use those times when we are most vulnerable to lure us into darkness.
It is in the dark times of life that we discover the depth of our relationships withe the Lord. Do we trust Him even when we can't see any evidence of His presence? Do we know He is there even when the silence muffles His voice?"
Then she goes on to talk about why it is important that we have scripture memorized, to combat this "darkness." Some interesting thoughts...
I think this is very fitting, not only for pregnant/new moms who aren't getting much sleep, but for anyone else that might suffer from sleep deprivation!
How thankful I am that we are not "alone" ever-that we always have the presence of the Lord with us even in the darkest (literally) times of life!
That's all from me at this sleep deprived state at midnight!